Sleep Paralysis/Demonic Activity

Three times I have experienced demonic activity during my sleep, two times I woke up terrified, the last time I knew what to do.


I walked away from God and got lost in the esoteric world. I practiced magic and divination, studied the occult and different spiritual religions and became a certified angel card reader but could never bring myself to charge for my readings.

During this time, many doors opened up to me, I met many people who I saw as teachers and guides, one who gave me books to further my studies and develop my spirituality.

As I grew in my knowledge and supposed power I was also becoming more depressed and anxious. The first time I ever felt this way I sought God and he brought me out of it. This time I didn’t even think about him as an option.


I woke up one evening unable to move. My heart was racing and I felt cold. I didn’t know what was happening. I thought in my mind, “If I can just move any part of me or even make a noise to wake up Jon (my boyfriend at the time) then everything will be alright.”

I was able to whimper and my ability to move came back. I was still shook from the experience but I was expecting odd things to happen and took them as part of the spiritual dimensions that I was connecting with and I just wasn’t used to it.

My sadness got so bad not long after this experience, as I continued with all the magic and so on, that I almost took my own life but a thought popped into my mind that said, “You don’t need to die for things to change.”

Thank God he didn’t let me go through with it.


I had moved into a new home with my new baby and boyfriend. It was again very late into the night. I remember part of my dream before I woke up.

I was being pinned down by a dark figure and I was very frightened. I was breathing fast and struggling to move but I felt hands grip my hands and dig nails that felt like claws into them. This dream pain shocked me awake and again I was paralysed. I couldn’t see the figure from my dream but I sensed a heavy, evil presence very close to my face and on top of me. I couldn’t move, my hands were still pinned beside my head and they still hurt from the pain in the dream. There was no whimpering that I could muster. I felt like I was struggling to breathe so this time that became my focus. Eventually I started breathing properly and was able to relax and regained control of my body again.

I started to do a lot of research into other people who have had this experience, things about shadow people, alien encounters and demonic activity. I don’t remember much detail about it except one person did say to call on Jesus. I brushed it off as it wasn’t the explanation I was looking for as I was still more spiritually inclined.


The last time it happened I was in my new home.

Again it was late at night and I only remember the moments in my dream where I saw a black shadowy figure (similar to the dementors in Harry Potter) and it was rushing toward me with great speed.

Just before it could make contact I thought, in my sleep, “Jesus Christ/Yeshua…” and I woke up instantly. There was no fear. I was able to move. In my experience, it was a miracle.

My friend tried to explain it away with scientific studies which were very well written and compelling; I read everything she sent me and looked into it more myself but I’m not convinced. Another person cannot explain away the evil presence I sensed, the fact that I called on Jesus Christ/Yeshua in a dream state, (who I didn’t believe could help me before), and when I did call on him, he terminated the cycle of my terror without me having to think anything else, not even to ask specifically which fits very nicely with the Bible verse,

Matthew 6:8 KJV

[8] Be not ye therefore like unto them: for your Father knoweth what things ye have need of, before ye ask him.


I pray this was a blessing to you.

Repent and obey Yeshua.

Seek ye the Lord while he may be found. Call ye upon him while he is near – Isaiah 55:6

Walking Revelations

I watched a sermon recently that stated how God’s creation testifies of Him.

As I was enjoying my walk with my dog friend I started looking around and asked, “What does everything I see reveal about God?”

I saw beautiful flowers, buzzing bees, spectacular skies and mesmerising animals as well as many houses, planes soaring overhead and birdsong travelling from their little lungs to my ears.

His Creation revealed to me that God is:

  • Amazing
  • Beautiful
  • Colourful
  • Gravity defying
  • Creative
  • Precise
  • Detailed
  • Complete
  • Kind
  • Permitting
  • Lovely
  • Diverse
  • Providing
  • Knowable
  • Identifiable
  • Perfect
  • Brilliant
  • Fun
  • Comforting
  • There are many more attributes of course but these are what came to mind during my walk through His world as I surveyed the beautiful things he created and allowed to be created.
  • Amen.
  • By The Grace Of God

    Isaiah 55:6 KJV

    [6] Seek ye the Lord while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near:

    I pray that all who read this know that Jesus is the image of the invisible God.

    We have free will to believe in Him or reject him.

    It is written:

    Proverbs 14:12 KJV

    [12] There is a way which seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death.

    Our own standard of goodness is nothing, it is worthless when measured up to God’s standard of goodness. His way is perfection.

    Romans 5:8 KJV

    [8] But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.

    John 3:16 KJV

    [16] For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

    We are all sinners and cannot be good on our own. We fall short every time without God leading the way. God is the way.

    John 14:6 KJV

    [6] Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.

    Once convicted of our sins and transgressions against God we’re instructed to be baptised in the name of Jesus Christ.

    Acts 2:38 KJV

    [38] Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.

    Without this gift and this grace we have no hope of being perfect as we are instructed to be. We are to do the will of the Father.

    Jesus Christ said, Matthew 5:48 KJV

    [48] Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.

    Luke 1:37 KJV

    [37] For with God nothing shall be impossible.



    You make me whole

    Nothing’s too hard for you

    My heart’s your home

    You’re closer than I’ve ever known.

    When on my own

    I know I’m not alone

    You give me hope

    When shadows come you light my way.

    Trusting you has been hard

    I thought I knew better

    You gave me eyes to see.

    When I sleep

    You give me dreams that come alive.


    Before they happen in my life

    You give me chances

    You provide

    The way, the way, that I’ll survive.

    Heaven is here

    You’re building through my being

    As I draw near

    I see perfection reappear.

    Now I know just how far

    You have come to change my heart

    You gave me ears to hear.

    I love you

    But I know you loved me first

    You give me

    Everything that works.

    I just wanna know you more

    I just wanna know you more.

    Show me the way

    Show me the next footsteps to take

    This ain’t a game

    This is a war

    On a spiritual plane.

    Ready my heart

    Give me your strength

    Teach me I pray.

    The Sweetest Things

    After seeing the sweetest, tiny bumblebee rolling around inside a pink flower collecting pollen I was told there was a ladybird nearby which was so beautiful and small.


    Snow Crochet

    fender snow

    Today it snowed! He is very comfortable in the snow. We got to enjoy a little walk later on in the evening. I stayed in most of the day and watched the world go by. Birds are amazing; they adapt to the weather. I saw many that flew and soared with the wind and prayed they would find rest. It looked exhausting.

    onyx snow

    It was Onyx’s first time feeling the snow. As I opened the door she ran towards it as usual as she loves the garden, but she stopped so quickly and observed until I decided it was time to greet the others.

    wag 2

    We were visited by three bird species today; Pigeons, Starlings and a Wagtail. I was focused on the Wagtail a lot as it is the newest visitor. I always see them walking so fast that their legs start blurring or flitting incessantly at vehicle mirrors trying to catch insects and today one was in my garden!

    wag 3

    The little Starling has visited for a couple of days and I can tell which one it is because it doesn’t fly away when I open/close the door unlike the others of its kind (watch this space). The regulars perch and wait.


    I also started crocheting again recently and today I made a little panel for one of our windows. It isn’t exactly like the pattern; I added more rounds and stretched it into a diamond shape to make it fit but I like the result.

    crochet swatch

    crochet out

    crochet in

    I didn’t think about it at the time but it really fits with the snowy theme of the day.

    Nikki Rose 🌹

    Walk With Me



    Fender.jpgToday we went for a walk.


    IMG_0562*shake shake shake*


    IMG_0564We met Puss.


    IMG_0565I like when we see Puss.




    IMG_0567I like plants.


    Birds.jpgThis plant is very functional. I like to walk by it.


    img_0569-e1519736172687.jpgWhat is this plant?


    img_0570.jpgSuch beautiful colours. Contrast. Opposites. Stunning.


    IMG_0571We met some daffodils. There is a famous poem about daffodils.


    IMG_0574I first saw the cat in the window box.


    IMG_0575It was an honour to meet him.


    IMG_0576So soft.


    IMG_0577This one is adorable.

    IMG_0579I liked it’s “meow.” I looked back and saw it peeping out at the entrance.


    IMG_0580I wonder if this one was feeling the cold like me.


    IMG_0581Budding, blossoms and blooms that perish.


    IMG_0582Can you see them?


    IMG_0583A miracle in existence.


    Even though it was freezing, I loved all that I saw and I especially enjoyed meeting fluffy living things.


    Nikki Rose🌹